Hello followers! Sorry I haven’t really been around much lately! I’ve had test after test as well as work placement which has put huge amount of stress on my time. I also work part time which meant that most of my free time was study and my Master. So I am hugely sorry for that!!

As everyone saw on my Master’s blog, we found a pet. Her name is Candy and she is one of the most amazing women I have ever met, not just in the sense of a submissive but also as a person. Her joining our house has also been a huge learning curve for me in a lot of different aspects.

First off came the physical aspect. Like every woman I know I have insecurities…and Candy is just fucking stunning! She is almost the polar opposite to me in appearance which did harbour a lot of resentment for a while there. It’s still something I’m not entirely comfortable with but something I am growing to accept. I see now why my Master chose to have a non sexual companion join our household first. I am beginning to appreciate her for who she is on a much deeper level. There is a lot I can learn from her.

Second issue is her experience. It intimidated me. I am a first time submissive in training…she has been a sub for a number of years and knows how to be one much better than I ever hope to one day achieve. I saw her as a threat and wanted her gone.

Lastly and most odd…I did begin to view her as a cat and not as a person. Which lead to my actions below.

Now as again everyone who follows my Master will know…I had a bit of a spat with Candy. One night while I was sitting studying for the fifth night straight, I looked over near the heater and saw her curled up and lazily playing with one of her house toys. I was jealous and actually really pissed off that she got to relax while I worked. So, pretending I wanted to take the dark, I got her to follow me outside with the pretence of watching me from trash out and was scared of the the back step. I closed the door behind us and went around the corner to the bin, then around the side of the house and back through the front door. I continued my study without a second thought and actually forgot she was out there. In my mind it was just me and my Master’s house again.

He came home and asked where Candy was. Instantly realising I was in trouble I hurried off to our room…more to hide than anything else. He quickly found me. The beating I received with worse than anything I have ever experienced and my liking of the cane is completely diminished. To make matters worse, I have to wear this stupid chastity belt until I realise what my biggest disappointment has been. I’ve tried a few times and so far come up empty. It’s frustrating but I know I deserve it.

That’s all I have time for at the moment as I have night shift tonight!

Again sorry to be away :D

Amber